freaking being a good student is not worth it sometimes...

I just wrote about my horrible ER shifts...I was chatting with some people who work in the ER this week, and even though it is supposed to be random, I did find out that the residents and doctors ask the scheduler to try to put the most responsible students on the 3pm-2am shifts since they end up doing the most on their own. I guess after 10pm there are normally only 1-2 other doctors there, and then the one student on from 3-2, so they like the student who gets the most of those shifts to be one that can handle acting as a doctor on his/her own the best since they might have to if it gets busy and the doctors need to work on other patients. I know I should be flattered, but I am so fucking burnt out that I don't care. I am starting to think it is not worth it to be a great student that people thinks will be a great vet if it means I get next to no sleep and time off. God I hope I have a good 3 weeks on ER.