S.A.D.

I think I have a serious case of seasonal affective disorder (S.A.D.) right now. I feel so depressed and lonely, and no matter how hard I try to lose weight, organize events with friends, ask people to take care of me, not get angry at people, find things to keep me from getting bored and depressed, I feel like I fail at all of it. I am not sure if all this upcoming elective time will be a good or bad thing for me. I don't want to be overworked and stressed, but I am finding all this free time daunting and oppressive in a weird way. I am sure it is just a bad case of the blues and it will pass soon, but wow, I HATE feeling like every waking minute is tough. I need some more stimulation to get me in a better mood.